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Enough

Enough

I have been hungry, so hungry I hold on to the scraps and grovel around the floor for the crumbs.  It is a kind of hunger that turns me mean and selfish, bitter and judgmental.

Have you felt that hunger?

Most of us have, from time to time.  We wonder if there is really enough for everyone, so we hold on to what we can get and snarl for the bread in the hands of another.

But the truth of it is, there is enough.  Enough for you and enough for me and enough for everyone to eat without envy.  Please join me over at Allume today where I share a story about having enough.

Dandelion Bouquets

Dandelion Bouquets

 

Dandelion Bouquets

“Mom!  Mom!  I have something for you!”

It is Jonathan, charging in to my place in the kingdom where I am wrestling with a vacuum cleaner and thinking about scrubbing toilets.  He smells like outside and boasts a green smudge on his knee where his jeans used to be.

“These are for you, Mom!” he says, thrusting a beautiful bouquet of spring flowers into my hands.  His fingers are grubby because he’s been collecting worms again. They match the muddy spattering of freckles that are just beginning to make their summer pilgrimage across his nose.

Jonathan smiles.  “I picked them for you,” he says, using the same phrase he has used every year when the earth wakes up and flowers grow where the snow drifted deep.

Dandelion Bouquets

The same little hands—bigger now—have picked countless bouquets, and little feet—bigger now—have run up countless steps, eager to share the breathtaking beauty with me.

This time, it is a wild assortment of dainty bluebells, snow-white camellias, restless dandelions, and one cheeky blue pansy from the flowerpot by the back deck.  I notice he’s included a few specimens I’ve never seen before.

“Those are from Mrs. Smith’s yard,” he says, pointing to some flowers I hope grow profusely.

“They’re beautiful,” I say, and he nods because he knows.

“I’ll put them in a cup!” he says, grabbing the flowers back and charging out of the room.

I come down a minute later to find Jonathan with a jam jar, carefully arranging the flowers so the blue touches the yellow and the pink settles in against the white.  “I like arranging flowers,” he says with a shrug, because an eight-year-old boy with a birthday in two days can’t very well say he likes arranging flowers without a shrug that says he doesn’t.

It is beautiful.

I stare at it a moment and marvel.  Dandelions and bluebells, a wisp of a white-flowered weed and a pretty pink camellia, all nestle in to the same cut glass jar because they are beautiful to a boy who has not yet been told any different.

Dandelion Bouquets

I realize I am partial to dandelion bouquets.

A bouquet like that means there is a child in my life who hasn’t been taught what beautiful is, and isn’t.  It is the priceless kind, brought in by grubby-handed boys with green smears where their jeans used to be.  It is the kind that is selected by sweet-smiled children who forget not to pick the neighbor’s flowers because they are filled up with the happy task of gathering all that is beautiful and bringing it in to the one who is the most beautiful to them in all the world.

A few years from now, the world will try to tell that boy what beauty is, and isn’t.  But for now, I have a jam jar on the kitchen table and the dandelions and camellias are keeping company.  I have a boy, two days shy of nine, who brings me beautiful flowers because he thinks I am beautiful.

For now, I have a boy who doesn’t know any different.

*100 Beautiful Days of Motherhood: 37

Clouds in water

A Day at the Sea

The ocean is the first thing I see every morning when I come downstairs to make my morning coffee.  Some days, it is sleepy-eyed under the covers of the clouds, or restless and wild with the wind.

But today, it is radiant with the sun and full of all the beauty of the sky.  The clouds themselves have been lured into the waves, and held there, contented prisoners of the blue.

Clouds in water

It is hard to stay inside on the days when the ocean looks so lovely, and is so loved.  Something in me is compelled to stand on the shores and delight in the union of sun and sky and sea.

Picnic by the sea

So we put the school books away and pack a bucket and a trowel and a bit of lunch, just in case.

Kayak Point, WA

We bare our toes to spring sunshine

and embrace the possibility of sandy footprints

Boy in the ocean

and saltwater kisses.

Kayak Point WA

We find the particular joy of wave-tumbled rocks,

fresh from the deep,

and the sharp welcome from barnacle domains,

crusted high.

A day at the beach

We are embraced by the sea, which understands the briny adventure that is boyhood,

Kayak Point

and the singular beauty of little girls, who in all their moods, are ever more captivating with each turn of the waves.

Kayak Point, WA

There is something sacred here, and we drink it in,

here where sun and sky and sea meet

in a kind of holy trinity,

and each member is made more magnificent

by of the magnificence of the others,

until I do not know which I like best,

the sun,

the sky,

or the sea.

Five in Tow

Breathless is the beauty that makes us more beautiful, this ocean,

full of a loveliness that makes us more lovely.

You cannot be ugly at the sea.

Fingerprints of God

It is full of the poetry of Creation,

and all around I see the hand of the Creator,

who presses His fingerprints into the shells on the shore,

and burns His glory onto the waves of the sea.

Kayak Point, WA

It is as if Heaven has come down,

a rush of eternity into the depths of the sea,

and all of its glory has been broken open

by the thorns that pressed in

in their attempt to hold it back.

Kayak Point, WA

But those sharp shards of hate and sin and death,

pressed too hard.

They pricked Heaven and burst it open

until the sacred rained down

all over thirsty earth,

which waited, parched and trembling,

for such a salvation.

Kayak Point, WA

We find it here–heaven–right here where sun and sky and sea come together,

in a kind of holy trinity.

We gather up the bits of it,

like manna,

and let it feed and fill and drench us,

Kayak Point, WA

until we are altogether changed.

*100 Days of Motherhood, 36

Sword of the Spirit

It Is a Battle

Once a month, I have the privilege of writing for Allume, an online community of women committed to ministering to others through the written word.  We are a group of bloggers, writers, visionaries, and just plain ordinary people who get a kick out of ministering to broken people just like us.

But it is not always easy. 

I have always been a writer, in the sense that I felt compelled to write.  I used to joke that I have a Times New Roman ticker in my brain because I see my thoughts in words, running across a giant screen in my brain.

However, blogging is fairly new to me.  A year ago in January, I jumped into blogging and suddenly, everything I wrote was put out there for all the world to see.  I had an audience.  The words I scribbled in private were now proclaimed from the rooftops.

It has been thrilling.

Fulfilling.

Devastating.

There are times when a post crushes me.  There are times when I think I can’t do this again, when I am battle-weary and broken.

Because it is a battle.  Anytime we use the Words of God to teach, preach, instruct, encourage, admonish, or praise, we are drawing a sword.  And whenever we draw a sword, His adversaries draw theirs.

If you have dared to grapple with the Word of God, you have felt it.  My post at Allume is my encouragement to you who are weary in the fight, who have felt the push-back of enemy forces when you speak the truth in love.  It is written to writers, but you know enough to know that it is true of all of us who stand along the front lines of this war. 

I hope you will read and arm yourself for battle alongside me today.

Sword of the Spirit

 

 

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God Wants You to Fail

God's Vision

A few weeks ago, I was asked to be a contributing writer to the Allume blog.  I looked through the list of contributing writers and swallowed hard.

(Eep).

I was more than a little afraid I’d trip all over my prepositional phrases and flat-out fail in front of all the real writers and big-time bloggers.

As I struggled through writing my first post, God kind of hijacked the whole thing and whispered in my ear, “May you fail.”

That is not what I want God to say to me when I write.  But it was exactly what I needed to hear. 

Today, my inaugural post is up.  It’s a little raw and a little real and a little not-what-I’d-planned to write.  It’s about coming to terms with the fact that God wants me to fail.  If you read along, I think you will find that God wants you to fail too.  And it’s okay.  

Won’t you join me?

8 Ways to Eat Healthy

8 Ways to Eat Healthy

And for something completely different, I had the privilege of writing a post for the Fit2B blog yesterday.  I’ve been following Beth’s exercises to help heal my diastasis, so when she asked for some help writing a few posts on nutrition, I jumped at the chance.  I have not been writing much about health and nutrition lately because I’m trying to follow a few blogging rules (focus, focus, focus), but if you know me, you know that nutrition is a passion of mine.

But for most of us, eating healthy is hard. 

In my post for Beth, I offer 8 tips to help you get a handle on healthy eating.  And guess what?  They’re all easy. 

Enjoy the blog hop!  Tomorrow, I’ll be back here with something new.

–Kristen